I'm going home
May. 28th, 2007 06:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
acresofhopeI'm sitting here with Daughtry's song Home on repeat and reading some old entries from October. Despite the progress I've made since then, I still think I desire sexual pleasure, food, rest and comfort more than God. And I'm still a big friggin' chicken when it comes to talking with people about Jesus. Forget that. I've barely left the house since March. I went out when my sister was here at the beginning of April, and a few days ago to the Christian bookstore. That's pretty much it. I'm not well.
None of this could possibly glorify God. And just in case you're on my list and haven't figured it out already, when I say 'God', I mean Jesus, who is not the same as Allah or any other deity. I don't know what everyone on my list believes, but I know not all of you believe the same as I do. I'm not hounding you to convert; not my job. I just want to make it clear who I'm talking about. Anywho...back to what I was saying. It's not that I expect myself to be perfect, but the way things are now...I don't see how anyone could look at me and say, "Jesus must be awesome," because I really suck at life right now. I just feel like after six and a half years, I should have more of a grip on things, but I don't. I feel like I'm going in circles.
Christians? Pray for me, please. And if anyone wants to flame me...do that too. I stopped caring about flames a long time ago.
None of this could possibly glorify God. And just in case you're on my list and haven't figured it out already, when I say 'God', I mean Jesus, who is not the same as Allah or any other deity. I don't know what everyone on my list believes, but I know not all of you believe the same as I do. I'm not hounding you to convert; not my job. I just want to make it clear who I'm talking about. Anywho...back to what I was saying. It's not that I expect myself to be perfect, but the way things are now...I don't see how anyone could look at me and say, "Jesus must be awesome," because I really suck at life right now. I just feel like after six and a half years, I should have more of a grip on things, but I don't. I feel like I'm going in circles.
Christians? Pray for me, please. And if anyone wants to flame me...do that too. I stopped caring about flames a long time ago.
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Date: 2007-05-29 05:16 pm (UTC)We are imperfect and we live in an imperfect world. But what is more is that we know the Creator and He loves us even though we're imperfect.
Continue to read, learn, and grow. Something I seem to be studying a lot recently is about how the life of a growing Christian who is loved by God is not easy. He allows things to happen in our lives so that we can/will grow in our faith.
It's alright that you feel like you don't know a lot. It would only be bad if you thought you already knew everything. Which is something we will not even get close to until we gome Home. I've been a Christian since elementary, and I still struggle. Hang in there sis'.