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[acresofhope]

I need a hug right now.

Maybe need is too strong a word. I really really wish I had someone I could just cling to. Make that Someone with a capital S. Jesus.

I'm still grieving the loss of my friends, and probably will be for a while. Grieving...not beating myself up over things I can't go back and change, no matter how horrible.

I actually lost more than three, it seems. I've read of another who has decided against me, for whatever reason. There are more likely others.

I'm trying not to complain, but can you blame me for being hurt? I'm trying desperately to convince myself I have worth, and yet nearly everywhere I turn, I see someone or something saying I'm not.

Oh Jesus, help me! Help me believe that, because I can't! I just can't! I try, I really do...but I don't have the strength. Give me the strength to believe what You say about me.

I don't even know if I should go on. At least here. This is where I dump my emotions, my thoughts, because if I don't get it out, it stays and screams at me. I just read all about how the hypocrites of Jesus' day would pray and make their faith so public as to impress others. That is not my intention, but even now I question my intentions. Do I really know them? I thought I did. So much has happened. I'm just confused.

*sigh* Shutting up now.

Comments

[ex-airehen.livejournal.com]

I can't really say what I would decide because I don't know the details. 'Cause there have been times by knowing the details, I decided to separate myself from some people. But having said that,...

whatever has happened, you're doing the right thing by crying out to God and seeking Him. Emotions are stronger right now because the events are still close. I know what it's like to be lonely and to need that physical presence which all too often doesn't seem to be there. Just continue in prayer, and even ask God to send you someone who can be there and understand.

Anyhoo, HUGS, and hope things will get better soon.

[terra-fanatic.livejournal.com]

Liz, you do have worth. Don't ever think that you don't. Continue to seek Him out and you'll be alright. You can't control what other people do. All you can do is live for Him, and know that everything will work out. You can't control what they do, but you can control what you do.