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[acresofhope]

We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen
Barlow Girl -- Never Alone


Gah, I don't even know where to start. I feel like I could write mountains upon mountains right now. There are just so many things swirling around in my head. This will probably be pretty random...so what else is new?

My mom has no job. She went in to work today and was told the restaurant is closed. She's applied at Waffle House, and I'm pretty sure she'll get the job, so no worries. It's just stressful when the little bro wants to eat out and throws a fit because he doesn't get that we have to save money until Mama is working again.

Again, where to start. God is teaching me so much.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
James 1:2-4

I was trying to write a poem Saturday night, for the first time since February. It was kinda a cry to God regarding what I see to be a trial. I was writing something about being crushed by the "rust-colored earth" (I don't know, I just love that image) when God spoke to me. He said something to the effect of, "You need to be crushed. Don't you remember? That's how I make diamonds out of coal."

The verse in James came the next morning in Sunday school, and such perfect timing. Not only did I learn something, but I was able to share all this with a friend who really needed it. It's so awesome to be used by God, especially being so aware that He doesn't have any obligation to.

The vision of God is the source of patience, because it imparts a moral inspiration. Moses endured, not because he had an ideal of right and duty, but because he had a vision of God.
Oswald Chambers

I'm seeing more and more that I shouldn't be seeking to get better. I should be seeking the vision of God. Not seek Him for strength or answers, but just seek Him for Him. As Ecclesiastes says, everything else is meaningless.

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[silverlightstar.livejournal.com]

I'm seeing more and more that I shouldn't be seeking to get better. I should be seeking the vision of God. Not seek Him for strength or answers, but just seek Him for Him. As Ecclesiastes says, everything else is meaningless.

Amen. Nothing else I could say, to be honest.