Girl girl girl, I really feel what you are saying here.
I have three comments I feel like talking about ... I hope they don't get too long. XD Not lectures, just things I felt like sharing.
1)You might not think so at all, you might think you are far from it. (please don't let this get to your head though) But I think you are so cool! To see how far you have came from your past and to see where you are heading is a beautiful miracle already. But what I find the coolest though is your heart. You have the kind of heart God loves. Its the kind we all should have. Have you ever heard of King David? and how he was supposedly a "man after God's own heart." Most people (mostly those who haven't read that part of the bible)hear that saying and totally misunderstand who David was. He think he was this perfect king, when in actual he did some horrible things. I love Psalm 51. towards the end, it says "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise." A heart after God is one that feels guilt instantly when you do something wrong, it sickens you, disguist of yourself, you feel so unworthy of God's love and forgiveness. God see the heart. And if you haven't noticed before, those people the type of people he uses to do his miracles through, the meek and the lowly and all the ones who you'd never expect.
2) Sadly too. When you look through out the bible, the next pattern was that to be in the right also meant being in the small minority. And outcast. Even among your own people. In Ezekiel, God's own people were confused and lost in the ways of the world, worshiping Baal (maybe because it was the in thing. XD) and Ezekiel was one out of them all who saw the truth. Church can be no different sometimes. I know personally. The best thing to know exactly for sure, and keep on the right path is to read the bible for yourself, know his words personally. Don't rely on someone else to tell you, because you'll only get a small piece, and sometimes its twisted with politics. Don't be spoon feed milk, its sounds like you've grown enough spiritually to eat meat and to eat it on your own. Thats what I've been doing, and I'm learn and understanding a lot more.
gerrrrrl! don't get me started. lol jk
I have three comments I feel like talking about ... I hope they don't get too long. XD Not lectures, just things I felt like sharing.
1)You might not think so at all, you might think you are far from it. (please don't let this get to your head though) But I think you are so cool! To see how far you have came from your past and to see where you are heading is a beautiful miracle already.
But what I find the coolest though is your heart. You have the kind of heart God loves. Its the kind we all should have.
Have you ever heard of King David? and how he was supposedly a "man after God's own heart." Most people (mostly those who haven't read that part of the bible)hear that saying and totally misunderstand who David was. He think he was this perfect king, when in actual he did some horrible things.
I love Psalm 51.
towards the end, it says "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise." A heart after God is one that feels guilt instantly when you do something wrong, it sickens you, disguist of yourself, you feel so unworthy of God's love and forgiveness. God see the heart. And if you haven't noticed before, those people the type of people he uses to do his miracles through, the meek and the lowly and all the ones who you'd never expect.
2) Sadly too. When you look through out the bible, the next pattern was that to be in the right also meant being in the small minority. And outcast. Even among your own people. In Ezekiel, God's own people were confused and lost in the ways of the world, worshiping Baal (maybe because it was the in thing. XD) and Ezekiel was one out of them all who saw the truth. Church can be no different sometimes. I know personally. The best thing to know exactly for sure, and keep on the right path is to read the bible for yourself, know his words personally. Don't rely on someone else to tell you, because you'll only get a small piece, and sometimes its twisted with politics. Don't be spoon feed milk, its sounds like you've grown enough spiritually to eat meat and to eat it on your own. Thats what I've been doing, and I'm learn and understanding a lot more.