"Who can stand in your holy place?"

[acresofhope]

Anyone who has been reading knows I've been reading Romans. Well, today, God brought to mind something in Romans 2 about teaching. I have said many things about showing mercy...but do I? Do I, who asks for mercy, show it to others? I'd like to say I do, because nothing comes to mind.

But then something did. I show myself far too little mercy. When I do something wrong, no matter how small or insignificant, it's like I crumble under the weight of it. And trust me, this thing that's happened that I've been going on about is not small or insignificant.

How do I show myself mercy? How do I forgive myself? While I know one day all this pain will be erased, both mine and my friends', and God has forgiven all wrongs, and our relationships will be restored in eternity...it just doesn't take away the pain they feel, or that I feel, right now. I would be worried if I didn't feel something. But when does it stop being healthy and become unmerited guilt?

I don't know the answer to those questions, and I don't think any of you do either. I'm almost certain I'll never really understand it logically, because matters like this aren't logical.

I need to get some sleep if I hope to be lucid enough to fill out job applications.

On an odd yet interesting note: I didn't even know I knew the word 'lucid'.

Comments

[onmiway2heaven.livejournal.com]

Today I was thinking about this, actually. I missed a few questions on my Arabic quiz (and these aren't short 10 question quizzes at all, they're 2 pages long) and I was REALLY bummed. In addition, I had just gotten back my English midterm and I had made a stupid mistake that cost me 5 points and I ended up getting a B.

Now, okay, most people wouldn't even attempt to take Arabic. And would be thrilled if they could get through a quiz. AND most college students would love to be able to read literature stories quickly and retain them and make a B on a midterm exam. And if someone else told me that they had gotten those grades, I would be proud of them and tell them that they had nothing to worry about. And I would mean it.

But why am I flipping out and feeling despondent and ready to give up school? hm? *sigh*

[closemyeyes----.livejournal.com]

Well to answer your question which is the title of this entry you can't (well as far as I know right now) just leave it to God. All the problems (which I'm not 100% sure what is going on) God is going to help you throw it he can help you through anything (I'm sure you know that already but it's good to keep telling yourself that) no matter what and as long as you put you faith in Him and you give him all your trust your problems will be fixed by him even if it doen't happen till you get into eternity he'll help you. Just to let you know that even though I don't know you and you don't know me I'm still going to pray for you and no one is going to stop me. Just do one thing don't let the devil get in the way of your well being just let Jesus Take The Wheel and that's all you really need.