acresofhope: (mystic sisters)
MY SIS WILL BE HOME IN A COUPLE OF DAYS!

I also made a playlist for myself on playlist.com. I call it my "IT'S ON!" list. All of them are by Superchick, and they all pump me up and make me actually want to do something with my life. Like try to conquer my fears and live and have hope and faith that I can accomplish something if I just keep trying. Posting it for you guys. [livejournal.com profile] rjchasez, I DEMAND YOU LISTEN, JERK!

IT'S ON! )

fear

Apr. 22nd, 2008 07:27 am
acresofhope: (chloe I can heal you)
Star Wars Episode I was on TV recently. Actually, I think it's been playing a lot lately. Anyway, Yoda always has a way of stepping on my toes. The next best thing to the Bible he is.

Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.


I'm afraid of most everything, and lately, afraid of church. I don't know what it is. I used to love it. What made me so afraid? I don't want the anger part to come, and if hate ever comes into the equation? Then I'm totally going to Hell.

Dear Jesus, help me release this fear before it snowballs into something neither of us want.
acresofhope: (billie charmed side look)
I meant to go out today, but I didn't. I think I've developed some kind of phobia, though I'm not sure what it is. Fear of leaving the house? That can't be it, because I go grocery shopping every week. Maybe it's a fear of the unknown. Whatever it is...I suck.

Today I had a food free-for-all. No logging anything. I ate a Hot Pocket and a corn dog today, with ketchup and mustard. Only thing is now I feel a little bloated. No, I don't think I overdid it on the calories considering I've had the bare minimum the past few days (and without being hungry too), but I still feel like crap. Still, I think if I didn't let go and have the good stuff every once in a while I'd cave and really overdo it.

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