acresofhope: (dino group)
I feel like I'm dying. It's just a cough and I'm exaggerating, but I'd really like to stop now. Thing is, I know it's just that my body's trying to get the freakin' mucus out of my lungs, but it's getting stuck somewhere and I can't spit it out or blow it out my nose. Yeah, I know, gross, so did not need to know that. Yeah, well, you do.

In other news, I went to church last week. Not this week because I'm so much more sick now and kind of overslept, but last Sunday night was one of the best nights I've had in a while. It started with me crying on the floor and ended with me walking out the door with my head held high and a smile on my face. That's a long story for tomorrow when I'm not extremely tired but still up because my cough is keeping me awake.

This coming Sunday, I will be going to church no matter how my health is, though I hope it's better by then. I don't want to cough all over everybody.

Oh, and I got this cute little nightgown with Tinkerbell on it. I feel all girly and ridiculous, but I love this thing.

fear

Apr. 22nd, 2008 07:27 am
acresofhope: (chloe I can heal you)
Star Wars Episode I was on TV recently. Actually, I think it's been playing a lot lately. Anyway, Yoda always has a way of stepping on my toes. The next best thing to the Bible he is.

Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.


I'm afraid of most everything, and lately, afraid of church. I don't know what it is. I used to love it. What made me so afraid? I don't want the anger part to come, and if hate ever comes into the equation? Then I'm totally going to Hell.

Dear Jesus, help me release this fear before it snowballs into something neither of us want.

insane...

Mar. 8th, 2008 11:35 pm
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I just joined more writing communities. Insanity, thy name is Elizabeth.

I never realized how unhealthy my diet is until now. I took an assessment at The World's Healthiest Foods, and if nutrients were hair, I'd be a naked mole rat. I exaggerate slightly, but still. At least half of them listed depression as a sign of deficiency. Not that I expect nutrition to solve all my problems, but it would help. I am now officially watch my calories and sodium intake. I'm going to start planning my meals, too.

Going to church tomorrow. Forcing myself to, actually. I can't keep isolating myself, even if it's what I feel like doing. It's just not healthy.

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