Okay, let's assess my day so far.
Cable internet is back. This is good.
It's hot. This is bad.
I can't find a version of Sleeper that will load. I'm unsure if that's good or bad.
You might have seen Cruise Olympus RP in sv_ledger. I joined there. I play Lana and Clark, along with Kira Ford from Power Rangers Dino Thunder and an original character I adpated to fit Smallville. This is madness.
Overall...I'd say if I get rid of this headache, I'll be a decent day.
Okay, let's assess my day so far.
I might be on im later tonight, I might not. If I'm not, you know why.
Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.
I'm afraid of most everything, and lately, afraid of church. I don't know what it is. I used to love it. What made me so afraid? I don't want the anger part to come, and if hate ever comes into the equation? Then I'm totally going to Hell.
Dear Jesus, help me release this fear before it snowballs into something neither of us want.
Today I had a food free-for-all. No logging anything. I ate a Hot Pocket and a corn dog today, with ketchup and mustard. Only thing is now I feel a little bloated. No, I don't think I overdid it on the calories considering I've had the bare minimum the past few days (and without being hungry too), but I still feel like crap. Still, I think if I didn't let go and have the good stuff every once in a while I'd cave and really overdo it.
Yes, ignore my random beef with my veggies, pun totally intended.
I really wish I was better in the illustration department. I have this nifty idea for an original story, one that I would only do for fun and wouldn't try to sell. The only thing is it involves anthropomorphic animals, also known as bipedal animals or furries, so pictures of actors and actresses don't do it for graphics. I got the idea months ago after watching Chicken Little. In fact, I'm watching it again now, trying to get a handle on what I'd orginally invisioned. Anyway, I think I've come up with the character would would be at the center, but I'm trying to think of what kind of look a site could have without me being able to draw something of relation. It stumps me.
I deleted all my fanfiction challege communities on LJ, with the exception of the ones I mod. I'm not doing that on IJ because I have very little problems from IJers. I question if I should finish The Reefside Diaries. I probably will, because there are a few people interested, but I'll probably only post it under flock.
Blah blah, yap yap, dribble dribble dribble. Goodnight.
I've dropped my challenge at mission_insane and 10_letters and anywhere else I had a Smallville related claim. I have one very special series I haven't finished that I will be finishing and posting under this name, which will be Five Families Clark Never Had. Yes, that's right, I haven't forgotten it. After that, I'll be making a name for myself elsewhere. Where exactly I won't publicly state, but the people I trust have already been contacted or will be soon.
It's a shame that people like me, who want nothing but to have a happy fandom experience, have to avoid fandom on LJ or hide behind different usernames instead of just having something all-encompassing. It's all me, if it be fandom, spiritual or otherwise. I can handle being hated and ridiculed for my spiritual beliefs. Spiritual beliefs are at the core of a person, no matter if you believe in something or nothing at all. Being harassed about fictional characters and fictional relationships...that's like being harassed for preferring salty over sweet, or in my case, liking both equally. If you don't like it, fine, just don't give anyone a trip to the dentist* over it.
*"A trip to the dentist" is spitting in someone's drink. I use it metaphorically here. See the Veronica Mars episode link for more info.
Until next time...
ETA: I decided to post my icons only here and hazelsparkle.
The skin under my purity ring is itching. I wonder if it means anything. I can just hear Him now... "I'm God, not a magician! Get out and meet people!" Becuase sometimes, He likes to talk like Leonard McCoy, along with just about any other character I know. It's probably just some random itching, though.
I haven't been writing much, but maaking icons instead. Whenever inspiration dries up I usually switch words for images. It usually seems to work. Of course, sometimes I just play Kingdom Hearts II or some other game. Not that I have all that many games. The only other game I have is Budokai 3, and then whatever Nintendo games my brothers have, but that's only when they've brought the GameCube. I want a Wii so badly it's not funny.
I just got the first Superman movie from Netflix. I love them so much. I just wish I could afford to rent more movies at once.
Moses must have talked to him about his portrayal in The Ten Commandments by now. I wonder what he said...
( The Forbidden City of Mérys )
I tried dying hair a darker version of my natural brown. Thing is, it turned out more black than brown. I'm sure if my mother sees it she'll make some kind of smart-aleck remark about me looking just like her now. My only solace is I have Terri Hatcher hair, circa Lois & Clark.
What? It's not Smallville.
( Help please? )
Why, might you ask? Well, how would you like it if every day there were people pretending to be your friend only to humiliate you and laugh in your face? If every day you didn't know if you could believe anything anyone said? Yeah, that was my entire grade school experience. Why would I there to be a day in which I live that hell all over again?
If any one of my friends plays that kind of joke on me, I will kill them.